Love & Time
July 8, 2010Love. A word defined as a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
This definition had, up until this point, meant that I loved my Jesus, my parents, and my friends deeply and fervently as best I could each day. Not being the poster child for warm and cuddly things, I lived most of the last 22 years striving to please others and shunned all male-folk that dawned the doorstep. Thoughts of “I don’t have time,” or “He isn’t driven enough,” or perhaps the infamous nitpicking after a first date. Unfortunately, these are all things I have done. I prided myself on being one of the few to maintain and independent and straight and narrow lifestyle, fully equipped with good friends and family.
However…
I love love. I rarely pick anything below a good, sappy romantic comedy. I secretly envied the girl riding on the front of her boyfriend’s bike each day as I walked to Spanish for a whole year. And I am helplessly and shamelessly devoted to any and all classic love tales in the form of books, real-life events, pictures, and movies. I wasn’t the little girl who dreamed of her wedding. I was the girl who gazed at the V-J day in Times Square Portrait and longed to be kissed by my one true love. To fall in love with one person and spend the rest of my life with them.
It seems as though I have been in a desperate attempt to have “the” moment. The knock-your-socks-off, fireworks, game-over, I am in love feeling. While that seemed rather attainable growing up, I have come to realize that true love stems much deeper than just a moment. It seems to me that love, is in fact, stitched together by time. On the one hand, I wanted to be loved, to love someone unconditionally, and for everything else to just fall into place. While on the on other hand, I was using time to avoid having to deal with “love” and nitpick about why someone wasn’t good enough for me. The problem wasn’t the men I was dating. It was me not trusting that in time, everything would just fall into place.
Love & Time. You can’t have one without the other.
As Charles du Bos states: “Love does not care to define and is never in a hurry to do so.”
It is time I stop trying to define why things are the way they are, continue to love love, and trust in time. <3
“It seems to me that love, is in fact, stitched together by time.”
I love that, Alli! So much. I teared up reading this post. Love and time do go hand in hand. I’m so glad that we have the same heart. This was such a beautiful affirmation to me, because you know that I do much of the same things that you listed here in this post. Can’t wait to see and catch up with you tonight dear twin!